This is gonna sound really silly, but it wasn’t until like 2 years after I first started hearing about meditation, that I actually began to understand what it was really all about.
I remember being totally embarrassed one day at the tea-store I was working at, I was 17 years old and I had just tried meditating for the first 2-3 times EVER earlier that week. It was all very new to me. Unguided. Alone. No prior experience.
I was talking to a co-worker about this, when a customer decided to join the conversation by asking me “so what do you do when you meditate?”
I couldn’t tell if he was testing me, or if he was just as curious as I was to learn more about this fascinating practice.
So, naturally, I decided to be honest and tell him that the whole time I was just sitting there thinking and that I didn’t know what else to do yet.
He gave me a snarky response like “isn’t that the exact opposite of meditating?” and walked away all pleased with his bad-self.
Looking back now, I totally understand what he meant by that. At the time though, I took it very personally. I felt like hiding and crying and brining my head back into my little turtle shell.
I’m gonna be totally honest, when I first began learning about meditation, it was very piecemeal.
I’d read a few chapters of a book on meditation, then I’d loose the book somewhere.
I’d listen to a guided meditation on YouTube every so often, and either get antsy and stop before it was done, or I’d totally fall asleep.
Needless to say, I couldn’t escape the taunting feeling that I was either just really bad at meditating, or that I didn’t fully understand the point or purpose.
All I knew was that I wasn’t feeling this whole peaceful vibe that everyone else seemed to experience from meditation.
I’m grateful to say that so much has changed since then and that I’ve learned many lessons along the way.
I still learn more with each new day, but here’s what helped me get to where I am today:
– years of stick-to-it-ness
– asking friends and experts for their tips and advice on meditation
– attending a variety of immersion style courses and retreats where meditation was at the very least included in the event, if not the main focus of it.
Have you ever started a job where you didn’t fully understand the scale, inner-workings, and potential of the work you’re being hired to do, or even of the company itself?
Then after a few day, and even more so after a few months of showing up daily, everything becomes more clear and easy to flow through. You know your way around, you know what to look for, you know what works for you and what doesn’t, you know who/what will support you and who wont, and you know your go to sources to learn and grow you knowledge and capabilities to get better at what you do.
The same thing happened for me with meditation. Once I started showing up daily, I really started to recognize the power of meditation.
I wanna take you on an up close tour of my experiences over the past year as I followed through with my commitment to overcome my lack of discipline and purpose through learning to meditate.
I started to meditate 6 days a week from 6:30-7am, every day except Tuesdays ~ that’s my Sacred Day where I have no plans or commitments
I started to notice and release my habits and patterns that blocked my flow of presence
I started to learn how to better support myself and to set myself up for success
I started to realize that every day is different, every meditation session is different
I started to view successful men and women in a very different light, seeing a bit better the courage, discipline, and strength it takes to be successful in life
I started to understand that the only person who could make this happen, was me. No. One. Else. But. Me.
I started to experience self-doubt whenever I lost sight of why I decided to do this, to build discipline and know my purpose
I started to see my vision for the day, for my year, and for my life more clearly
I started to become aware of my breath more of often throughout my day
I started to feel my sense of purpose becoming stronger
I started to enjoy the quite time in the morning for myself
I started to embrace the darkness that I once feared within myself and in the world
I started to build courage and faith in myself
I started to take action and make changes in my life that lead me to success.
I started to consciously cultivate the feelings of accomplishment and gratitude to be of service to others and to provide for my family
I stopped making excuses and I started meditating daily. It’s as simple as that.
I’ll tell you, it wasn’t easy though. I tried to wake up early and was unsuccessful at that for a longgg time, until I discovered how to wake up early with ease.
Something I’m told every morning that I want to pass on to you, is that “you and your life are worth it!”
I’m cheering for you!
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